Lately the Lord has really been hammering me with evaluating my life..
how much is of Him?
am I working towards goals for Him?
is He a consideration before everything I do?
am I talking to Him?
how am I praying?
do people see Him visibly in my life?
am I being a witness?
do I talk a whole lot better than I walk?
what are my children going to see in me? Will it be Him??
Lots of tough questions with just as tough answers.
I just keep thinking over and over, how a lot of people in the Bible did more through their actions then their words. They showed faithfulness. People visibly seen God in there lives. How awesome is that. Just in keeping their faith they were the biggest witness they could have ever been.
Looking at my life I'd say lots of other things come first. How annoying is that. I mean I even know that's the case. It's so hard to change things. I know one thing though, the more I read, whether it be a Biblical based book or the Bible, the closer I am to getting Him to number one.
I never read the Bible much growing up. I mean I knew our Bible stories from Sunday school, but I didn't like to read and thought I knew it all, which is pretty well what I thought about a lot of things. Funny how the Lord flattens you on your hiney now and again, or a lot. What can I say? Stubbornness is a horrible thing. :)
The older I get and the more I am in the Word, the more I realize how vital it is. It just changes everything. Your mood, your speech, your spirit, and the way you live in general. It gives you peace, a renewed strength. Just think what all I missed out on then. Praise Him who keeps on working in us or I'd still be losing out! I forget that the Bible is a GIFT, not just something to sit on my table. There are people that are dying to deliver and read them, and I have two just sitting. Breaks my heart when I think about it that way.
I also think about my children. Will they see that I put God first? Will they want to put Him first? Will they do everything in their life to His glory? I sure hope so, but I know that most of that responsibility falls on my shoulders. If I truly love God, they will see that.
I'm also so thankful for the Church family that we have found. There is just something about surrounding yourself with believers and people who are loving and caring. Happiness brings happiness and misery loves company. I never realized how important it is for you to have believing friends who genuinely want to help you on your walk.
Today is gloomy, but the sun is shinning when I walk in the Lord. I had the winter blues the other week, but at the end of the week got back into the Word and made me smile again.
The Lord is just so good. It's amazing that I choose to leave Him at times and do it my way. Praise the Lord for always bringing me back. His love is so great. Hope you are feeling His many blessings today!
Don't be so upset about how far you still have to go; be excited about how far you've come!